Just Joined the Writer’s Challenge – I Can Do 250!

I figure 250 is a good start, especially for days like today when I’m feeling especially unimaginative. Sure, give me a prompt and I’ll pull something out of my hat. So straight outta my hat:

I stared at my drink in deep meditation. I knew it was no good for me. It would only worsen things in the morning, but right now – I just needed to clear my head. I was suddenly faced with a decision that I just didn’t feel prepared to deal with.  I could suffer through life with a sure thing or go for the gusto and take a leap of faith.

Lester was fundamentally better suited for the task of marriage. Geoff was better suited for … well other tasks. I couldn’t help but smile at the unlucky choices I had before me. Not so many had either choice at all. Then it dawned on me, what I was really meditating on. I’d been so caught up in the headiness of being wanted and desired by two men, at the idea of being able to choose, that I’d failed to truly consider the choices. 

This really wasn’t about Lester or Geoff at all. I was indifferent in every way to them both. If that weren’t the case, there would be no competition. What is indifference to true love or even lust and passion? The decision I was really belaboring was whether I would choose to be alone or not. I could either hold onto a relationship gone cold and stale or quietly let them both go. I imagined letting both of them ease into the rolling tide and off into the sunset. As I gazed wistfully into my drink, the idea of casting their memories adrift began to take hold.  Then the solitude created would be all my own and of my own making.

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Getting It Together

Today I worked on a few things. I finally got my creative license posted – if you’ll turn your attention to the upper right sidebar. Voila! Also, I did some research for my next blog site. Yes, I decided to create a seperate platform for presenting articles.  It took me a while, but after looking around at some of the more successful blogs they’re always: 1) current, 2) creative, and 3) directed toward a specific audience. So, se la vie to the tabs!

My next blog, which will of course be linked to this one, will mainly cover societal issues and relationships. Exciting stuff! I can’t wait to get it up and running.

Changing gears a bit, I finally scoped out a place where I can both get my tire replaced and a tune-up at a reasonable price. I have a list of endodontics offices that’ll hopefully be cheaper than my first referral. I took care of some loose ends on the budget front, in anticipation of filing my taxes this week. Oh, and to start the year off right, I’m ordering my credit report. (I strongly encourage you do the same.) I downloaded the rest of the music for my MP3 - which took ‘ever - before the free trial period runs out ;o) Lastly, I got my list together so I can start submitting apps for a part-time writing gig. 

So now that I’ve set some things in motion, it’s time to ramp it up for the new year. Now if only I could direct that kind of energy toward straightening my apartment. Going to the gym and sweating it out that way is far easier than sweating it out over a kitchen sink or bathroom floor anyday. Ugh! Nevertheless, as I must I shall.

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A Writer’s Bad Habits

What is it about writers and bad habits that make the two seem to go together so naturally? Well, when it comes to writers, they are a unique breed and carry with them some exceptional bad habits. I could scarcely imagine the array of vices, incendiary inclinations and decisively bad behaviors practiced by writers world round.  I’m embarrassed to admit of my personal familiarity with one particular bad habit I’ve been engaged in over the past several days. So what bad behavior have I been entertaining? What fetish might I be indulging in for the sake of the artform?  What bad habit have I been exploiting? Simply. Not. Writing. *cloud of shame hovers overhead*

As happens with most bad habits, once you’ve begun to entertain them, you have to retrain yourself in order to break them. I am hereby retraining myself from my four day hiatus from writing. It’s been four days since I’ve posted to my blog, or written anything new in fact. It’s the longest I’ve ever gone without posting to Write All About It since I started the blog!

While I could comfortably settle into any number of excuses as to why I haven’t been writing, I’ve choosen the following:

Over the past few days I’ve been feeling pretty deflated and much distracted. First, I recently learned that in lieu of me being ”downsized,” my salary is going to be “downsized.” Shortly thereafter, I learned that I would need to undergo a painfully pricey dental procedure. Ouch! Next, I missed my very last (prepaid) writing workshop. Ahhhh!  It was to be the highlight of my week. Then finally, the clincher, the reason I missed my class was because I had a tire blow out on I-94 (I’m lucky to be alive) on one of the coldest nights (thank God the heat functions properly) in Chicagoland. What? It’s my pity party and I can vet if I want to!

Okay, so the dog ate my homework. The truth is, and sometimes the truth hurts, it’s painful to write when you feel crappy and unmotivated. Yet, and I’m glad I didn’t miss any of my earlier classes, one technique my instructor taught us to use when you’re having difficulty focusing is to write in the stream of conscious. The theory being, it’ll get your engine jump started and before you know it you’ll be raring to go.

Plus, writing in and of itself can be a cathartic exercise requiring little stretching and a lot of healthy meditation. So from here on out I promise, promise to never not write for any length of time again! Plus, I’d hate to lose my mastery of an ever extensive vocabulary ;)

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“First Kiss” – My No Kiss Blogfest Entry Revision

Elise placed her elbows on the edge of the windowsill with her face propped in her hands. She searched the yard. Jason was late. That wasn’t like him.

They had a regular schedule for their meet-ups. It just so happened that their schedule followed her parents’ social schedule. So when they were away at their weekly bible study meeting, Jason would come over. After they’d leave for their weekly date night, Jason would come over. They had practiced this routine for weeks and it seemed to work out perfectly well, only tonight he was late.

His route required him to cut through her yard, shimmy up the old maple tree and crawl across the flat part of the roof into her bedroom window.

Elise sighed heavily as she looked at the position of the long hand on the clock on her wall. When she turned her attention back to the yard, however, there was Jason scaling their privacy fence and jumping over into the backyard.

Elise opened the window and yelled in a whisper, while enunciating every word, “Jason hurry up before my parents get home. We don’t have much time now!” She was annoyed that he was late, and irritated more so because he hadn’t called ahead of time.

Jason mouthed back, “Sorry.”

She was still standing by the window with her arms folded when he skillfully swung through the opening, landing solidly on the floor. He adjusted his clothes a bit and Elise began busying herself with the job at hand.

“Hey. I’m real sorry Elise,” Jason mumbled. “I sort of lost track of time.” He had a contrite look upon his face as he began to rub the back of his head with his hand. “It won’t happen again, promise.” Jason could read the irritation in Elise’s movements, though he couldn’t see her face.

“Well, let’s just get started.” Elise said as she artfully moved from one end of the room to the other, getting everything they needed cued up for that night’s podcast recording.

Elise and Jason, well more Elise than Jason, had decided that for their multimedia class project they’d put together various podcasts on their blog to make it more interesting and accessible. After scoring well on their project, Elise and Jason decided to put together their own blog and develop podcasts for it.

Although setting up their blog was Elise’s brainchild, she had a hard time selling the idea to her parents. When it had been a class assignment they’d had no problem with her and Jason getting together at the house to work on it. So while Jason had been welcome to visit before, her parent’s disposition was decidedly less welcoming when it came to visits of a personal nature. Tim and Margery Kinzie clearly considered blogging and podcasting, which they hadn’t held in high regard anyway, activities of a personal nature.

So Elise, being the resourceful ninth grader that she was, had come up with a plan. She would have Jason sneak over during adult bible study night and date night so then they would be able to record their podcasts.

“Alright, I printed out the notes we talked about earlier.” Elise plopped beside Jason on her narrow bed and placed her laptop on her end table, after having pulled it out from its corner.

“You know Elise I was meaning to ask you about something.” Jason said, fumbling with his words.

“Yeah.” Elise responded, still fiddling with tangled cords.

There was a long pause during which Jason hadn’t said anything. He began nervously jiggling his knee up and down and rubbing the back of his head again. Then he cleared his throat about two or three times.

Without hesitation, Elise smoothly reached over to turn on the podcast camera. She began her introduction and focused on the little blue light atop her laptop that let her know the camera was on and recording.

Jason jumped in right on cue and they engaged in their usual podcast banter, joking with one another. They had a natural chemistry.

At the end of the podcast, Elise relaxed.

“I know it’s late so I can send you a copy of the podcast to review before I post it to the blog,” Elise said. She turned toward Jason and saw that his face was beet red.

“What’s wrong?’ Elise asked. “Are you about to be sick or something?” She was sincerely concerned.

Elise made a move for the garbage can under her desk, when Jason caught her arm before she could stand. Elise was startled for a moment and then she looked Jason in the face, her brow furrowed and her head tilted, as she tried to read his expression.

Jason was filled with a mixture of fear and longing and … well, mostly fear.

Jason moved his lips to speak, but he’d lost his voice. He could only sit there staring at her. She in turn stared back in bewilderment at him. He released her arm and slowly lifted his hand to her face so he could tuck a loose strand of hair behind her ear.

Elise immediately looked down at her feet. She felt butterflies in her stomach and pricklies all over her skin. Her face turned flush and her mouth went dry.

She tried to understand what had just happened. Does this mean Jason likes me, she thought to herself.

Before she had a chance to answer her own question Jason had his hand around her waist and had slid beside her. She raised her head up slowly until she was looking directly into his eyes. Tentatively, Jason leaned over moving his mouth closer to hers. Elise closed her eyes and parted her lips slightly.

His heart beat so fast in his chest he thought it might explode.

She could scarcely breathe. Her chest rose and fell with every second as the space between them disappeared.

She sat paralyzed; liking the way Jason’s hand felt on the small of her back and welcoming his warm breath next to her cheek.

Jason tilted his head to the side and –

Nothing.

She heard the bed springs release as Jason went from sitting next to her on the bed, so close they could almost taste one another, to standing at full attention in the middle of the rug. He was breathing heavily and staring, wild-eyed, at the open door across from him.

Elise nervously turned toward the bedroom doorway, where she was met with her father’s gaze.

Neither she nor Jason had heard her parent’s car pulling into the driveway.

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Temporary Memory Lapse … ?

There’s a lot going on, but I haven’t forgotten I promised you all my thoughts on the December 30th post, ”Is Sex Just Another Compromise in Marriage? L-T Relationships?” Mind you, I’ve been doing some recon to add some depth to my response as I am neither married (never have been) nor in a long term relationship (not since June ’09). Anyhoo, I’ll make sure to make it up to you in 2010! Hope it proves to be worth the wait. :)

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No Kiss Blogfest Jan 2, 2010!

Alright – this is right in line with one of my resolutions! I am entering every contest and competition I can in 2010. My first challenge is with the No Kiss Blogfest. While it may bring about nothing more than bragging rights, that’ll do too! Hahaha. I’ve never written anything remotely romantic, so I guess here’s my opportunity to get my feet wet.

This is the set up. You sign up and write a flash fiction piece in which there is a scene where two characters, who have a palpable chemistry with one another, come temptingly close to kissing but then don’t. I love it! I’ll post my piece as soon as I get it together and you can let me know whether or not it fits the bill.

If you want to get in on the fun, visit Frankie Writes!

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I Welcome In 2010!

If how you spend NYE is indeed indicative of how you’ll spend the rest of the year, then I plan to bring in the New Year relaxing and decompressing with some fine wine and reading material, enjoying the order of the space around me and the warmth and comfort of being at home.

That’s not to say I won’t be leaving my house in 2010! However, in an effort to promote calm, inner peace and harmony, I feel inspired to seek out places that have established that kind of environment. Now you’re probably wondering when I plan to start my yoga classes and whether I’ve already rearranged my furniture to comport with feng shui principles.

Well let me clarify. I’m on a personal journey to find my peace. There is no mantra or spiritually divine spatial configuration to assist me in doing so. It’s been said that the people you surround yourself and the environment in which you live can influence your mentality. So, I plan to surround myself with some serious writers and artists who support and can identify with my desire to write and write well. I intend to soak up the richness of my environment and the positive vibe that permeates in a room full of open minded, creative thinkers.   

Yes, in 2010 my goal is to find inner peace and do more of the work that inspires, motivates and compels me to wake in the morning and ne’r sleep at night. Come on in two thousand ten! I am, unabashedly and unapologetically, a writer for life!

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